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[Cathy]

Peni, I'm sorry you're missing your dad so much. I wonder if it's because he was your last surviving parent. Please be kind to yourself about how you're feeling and don't feel guilty because you know you loved your mum too. I'm sorry you keep wanting to tell your dad things. I pray God comforts you and helps you not to feel so alone. Is the funeral over by now? How did it go?

[tr8theta]

Honestly? I miss my dad more than I thought possible. And I feel guilty because I didn't miss my mum like this. I feel very alone, and lonely, and every, single, darned day something happens where I say to myself "I must tell dad that!", and then it hits me that I can't tell him anything.

How's that for honestly, lol.

re: I say to myself "I must tell dad that!", and then it hits me that I can't tell him anything.
Why of course you can tell your dad anything you want to! just like The Holy Trinity is not with us in the corporal (physical body) sense...they are still with us in the spiritual sense...and know this...our loved ones who have left the physical state of being DO NOT cease to exist...they are also with us spiritually. We were made in Gods image and as spiritual beings we are not limited to one round of physical life...we are immortal. (this is my belief anyway...hope you don't mind my expressing it) So you talk to your dad...share your life experiences with him...he is there and listening.

[Arus]

since I was taking care of my mother for two years while she had cancer I had already mourned her and was more ready.

That's a good point! Thanks Coll!

[Arus]

Is the funeral over by now? How did it go?

Thank you Cathy. I think I probably miss him so much because I saw so much of him. There was no funeral, as per his wishes. He was cremated, some of his ashes we put with mum in the garden, I kept some and my sister took some back with her to bury in Wales.

[Arus]

(this is my belief anyway...hope you don't mind my expressing it) So you talk to your dad...share your life experiences with him...he is there and listening.

You are welcome to express what you like! I do still talk to him in my head, but it's not the same, you know?

[tr8theta]

re: not the same, you know?
I know it's not...but it's all that we have left...at least it's nice to think that we can still have a spiritual relationship in which he can hear you and perhaps even speak to you in your thoughts...that plus our fond memories.

[Cathy]

Peni, I can understand you missing your dad so much because you saw so much of him. Thank you for telling me about your dad's last wishes and how it was carried out. How are you going with sorting out your dad's house? Is it going to be sold? I pray that God comforts you and helps you through this difficult time.

[Arus]

Cathy, I finally finished sorting his house out today, which is such a relief. I can't sell it until his estate has been wound up, and that could be (according to the lawyers) at least 9 months, if nothing goes wrong.

Tom, thank goodness I have lots of fond memories!

[Cathy]

Well done, Peni! It took us about a year to sort out my Dad's unit but he had quite a lot of stuff and it needed a lot of cleaning. It always takes a while for an estate to be sorted out, which is a pain.

[Arus]

It is a pain, but it also gives me much needed time to decide if I want to sell or rent it out, so that's good.