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Jude:
Hi my understanding of the book The Shack is the most emotional book I have ever read. I read all the time and I had just finished "The Invisible World" so I made my husband promise to read it, which he is doing now. He doesn't know it yet but I am also going to get him to read this one next. Right now our 16 yr. old is reading it for a book report and she said she has never read a book so fast. (She can't put it down) I have lived a very confused life even though God has always been with me. How do I know? Because I died at the age of 16 and God talked to me. I didn't see any bright light in fact it was pitch black. All I know is His voice was a baratone but soothing. When He finished telling me about what He had planned He told me to go back because it wasn't my time. Although I didn't know it at the time the EMT had prnounced me dead & moved on to someone else that was in the wreck. The mailman was the first on the scene & when he saw the blood spurting out of the side of my head. He instinctively grabbed some mail & shoved it against my head to slow the bleading. ( bet the people who's mail he used wasn't to happy about this) But when I took that first big breath the mailmam screamed and fell back on his rump. The EMT ran back to me and started to work on me. Well I know God sent that mailman to me. Because of this experience I feel I have an edge on most peoples faith. I KNOW HE IS ALIVE. Through all the things that have befallen me I sometimes get like Mack and get angry at him. Then I usually break down and cry asking for the umteenth time for forgiveness and beg for his grace to get through whatever I'm dealing with at the time. If ever I can get my life's history in order I'll have to write a book. But I feel like Mack. How do I put it into words. I need "Willie". So Paul if your up to it this one will not be fiction.
Your book , Paul, gave me such an understanding of the trinity(at least a way to look at it) that I want to shout out to everyone I know READ THIS BOOK! Thank you for the rollercoaster ride it was exhilerating.

diegito:
What a wonderful testimony, Jude! I, too, gained so much from the book, especially regarding the Trinity.

Yes, there are things in Life (and Death, too, as you described) that cannot be explained except by the fact that God IS. My friend at school lived with her aging grandmother who was scared of dying and constantly grumbling. Then she (the grandmother) had a heart attack, during the course of which she was proclaimed dead, but she revived. She never talked about what had happened, but she was a completely different person until she left this world - loving, without fear, and full of smiles. These things are true.

You are blessed to have had God explain your path and purpose to you in words.

I think knowing and loving us so well, God understands if we sometimes lose our nerve or lose our tempers or complain to Him "why me?". My little son sometimes gets so frustrated and angry that he tries to hit me. He can't possibly really hurt me with his tiny hand and I know from experience that once he's vented his frustration, he will just cuddle up in my arms and cry. So ideally, I don't feel offended or rejected when he gets mad at me... I know he loves me and the worst thing I could do to him would be lead him to think I don't love him (I only get impatient if I can't concentrate fully on him due to other outside demands, or am tired or sick or whatever). His anger at me is, in a way, an expression of love and trust - after all, he turns to me because he knows that "Mummy can fix it". I think our relationship with God is quite a bit like this, only that of course God loves perfectly (He can always give us His full concentration, is never tired, sick etc. and knows how it will all end) and we humans can't. So I think God probably smiles with Love when those who trust Him bring Him their anger and trouble. He wants to be part of our lives and wants us to be honest with Him. I think just about the best bit about living with God is knowing He loves me although He has seen me at my most pathetic and despairing. He will never, never leave His children... Halleluja!

You have been through a lot on your journey, Jude.  Even if you never get round to writing that book, you can give plenty of people encouragement by writing in this forum. It's great to have you here!!

Jude:
Thanks for the encouragement diegito. I have other posts that give you a little more of my life. They are on different threads in this forum. If I were to share everything I would take up to much space and they would probably kick me off.LoL your son sounds wonderful. I have always loved kids. It was my dream to have loads of them, but my then husband had a visectomy so it couldn't happen. He was an agnostic and no matter how I tried he wasn't going to change. The kids & I went to church every Sunday and even sent them to Catholic school. He had been in Vietnam right after we got married and was one of the guys to come in to Hamburger hill and get the one guy that was still alive & go back to pick up the rest of the dead. I think this really had an effect on him. Throughout the 18 yrs. we were married he became more abusive to me and eventually to the kids as well. When he beat me so bad to put me in the hospital I knew I had to get out cause I was starting to think like Farrah Faucet in the "Burning Bed". During the fight I saw my son behind his father with a rifle pointed at his back. It scared me more than the beating. I went to a womens shelter and got a divorce. Took awhile. After moving away from the area (closer to my parents) in another state I got an anullment and 3 yrs. later found the most wonderful man (in a support group for widowed & divorced) we have been married for almost 28 yrs now. He has the most gentle soul. We are stuggling like everyone else due to this economy but he calls me his rock. I keep reminding him to let go & let God. He knows its hard to do but he finally got a handle on it and his phone is ringing again and within a few months he was & is swamped with work. Praise the Lord!!!

arus:
Jude, I have copied your post from the other thread to here.  I hope that's ok.


O.K. arus I'll try again. We have had April since she was 2. Her litle 4mo. old brother died 2 weeks before her 2nd B'day. We waited tilafter the funeral to celebrate her B'day. ( She had never had a big party with other kids before. She says she still remembers all her partys at our house when she was little). Her parents were charged with murder. Her mom made a deal with the D.A. & got 15 yrs. & served 5. Her Dad got death row. He wouldn't let anyone testify against his wife because he loved her & didn't really think he would be convicted. He has Tourettes Syndrom & did not take the stand in his own defense (attny. advice). His wife's testimony said nothing against him regarding their son but she did say that she felt something was wrong with her baby but just rolled over & went back to sleep. Little April woke her dad up saying Tee Tee, Thats what she called him. His wife hit him on the head & told him to shut her up. So he thought she was tending to the baby. He just got his appeal approved a few months ago & is waiting for the courts to set a date. His Federal Attny. says that they can prove the baby died of double pneumonia. We always knew that no one murdered him but as the Fed. Investigator said "you have a bunch of good old boys down there don't you." I agreed. He was railroaded and sits in isolation in a 6 by 8 cell all this time. I let April visit with her mother a few years ago when she lived in a different state. Then she moved back here with her new husband & April spent a couple of weekends with them. My reason? I knew the teen yrs. were upon us & I wanted her to get to know her mother so when she got to the point that the hormones were raging and she felt that we just don't get it!, Then she wouldn't run away to her. It worked and now April has made up her mind all by herself based on her own experience with her mother that she wants nothing more to do with her. & she has told her so.
I guess you figured out by now that her dad is my son. I know God won't let us down. He has been hearing our prayers.

arus:
That is so sad about your son Jude, and no, I didn't guess that it was your son!  It's sad when the justice system that is supposed to protect us does exactly the opposite.  You did the right thing in letting your daughter decide for herself what she wanted, and I am very glad she chose you!

 

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