because i came i came because i read the shack

[connor]

i put her through so much, too much possibly, in the pursuit of acceptance or love or whatever.
possibly even just escapism, thats okay too.

do people have an obligation to look after themselves?
i dunno.

things go around my mind alot, im not sure if i think about things more than other people, or think in different lines than other people, because you cant compare thought patterns really can you, so maybe they do maybe they dont.

somtimes i think i should leave this forum entirly, many people will not care about me, a couple probably think bad of me, and the chance of friends is considerably lowered. as well as og in ability being lowered to that of a normal person (ban probably means no err whats it called ip address swapping-mobility).

but then i guess i wonder what else i got.

and i guess i also hope.

which is dangerous. if i have a obligation to look after me, which isnt really going so good health wise anyhow, then hoping on forums where the chances are minimal is putting ones mentality at risk.

Hello, im amelia. 18 years old, go to college, hate it. i went to college today. going to college makes me want to cry because the people are so mean. i dont think there is a different way of putting that. not sure. i decided what university to go to. the other students made fun of me for a bit, they said their universities are bigger and better. *ponders* but i dont think bigger means better. and i dont think mine is smaller anyhow, just close together.

told my teacher what i plan to do in my final project today, she srewed up her face like i had declared a love of eating worms or somthing. all i said was maybe i could design a tshirt.
what is it with these people, hate everything i say. i think im going to fail the year. but its so stressful going in and being put down that i dont really care i just want it to go away. i dont need it to get into university or anything. i just think my parents will be mad.

when im not at college, i dont think i should do anything fun because when i fail i dont want somone to say i was off having fun instead of trying to be all successful. so nothing is much fun until after then. i quit online gaming and the such, now no one can say i gamed instead of college stuff.

ive been to the doctors and hospital many times this year, but err, they have given up.

a couple of months ago i considered that living in pain friendless and jobless

you know, im just typing, usually when i do this, i delte  it, because, umm, i dunno, its not really structured, i dont think anyone here wants to here unstructured talking from me. i ought to be writing somthing shack like or religion like ought nt i . im not sure that was a word, but when i said it in my head i decidedt

right, the shcak or religion

or somthing.

yes.
its int interesting how people view religion. i mean, people have thoughts about the church or religious people and what they are like, or ''st- steriotyped to be like'' or should be like. or are like. or want to be like. or believe.

or maybe, the other way, its interesting that if you think about god, some people think you shouldnt and should just hardly any time to it, get on with it ggo on with life whatever
and some people think its a major thing and relationship and and and and and

somtimes i think thinking about god alienates umm, is that the right word, umm,
well it means some people have to stand up to group a of people (people who think you shouldnt consider god, or at leaast not much if any)
or privatise your thoughts about it (hidden journey, go to shack alone, press inprivate, shhh)
or convert (stop thinking about it because others say so, convert to their stop it ways)

but some peopl get closer together because of god and and and


i was annoyed about somthing.

is there a place for everytone,

somtimes i think so, somtimes i think everyone has a place maybe and they maybe can have friends and happy or somthing, or whatever it is their place it,is

and somtimes i think there is no place and

so i read the shack

i read the shack book about umm, it was maybe a year ago or somthing anyway, i ordered it after my car crash at some point because i wanted to know, i wanted to know about the car crasha dn if if there was if god was there, and maybe talk to somoene about it, or learnt about it, and learn about medicine and medical and god and the world and why what the carsh car crash. why. and whether god was there

so yes. that is my intro. i tread the shack because when i was thinking about whther god was there i caeme across the book ok.

[Tim-O-thy]

i think you're a very caring and beautiful person amelia, its taken me a bit to figure you out but i think i have. You're a thinker...thats for sure. i'm a thinker too. i think to much lol.

The world is a very cruel place right now...evil days we live in....please stay and find what peace you can find here. We love you!!!!

[Michael Collum]

((((((((((((((((((((Amelia)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Yeah Rudi, doesn't she have such beautiful questions?

[claireangel]

Hi Amelia! Type away! I think of this place as a place to share your thoughts and feelings-hopefully without any judgements. I have read some of your posts, they are very thought provoking. Sometimes I don't know how to respond to them, I'm not as eloquent. But then maybe they don't always need a response. I'm just letting you know I'm "listening". 

[Tim-O-thy]

((((((((((((((((((((Amelia)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Yeah Rudi, doesn't she have such beautiful questions?

Mike...you need one more post for 9,000

Yes she does i dont understand some of them but i always smile anyways  She seems like a good kid.

[EnglishJulie]

It's taken a few of us a while to get to know you Amelia, but you have many friends here now. I personally wish I had got to know you sooner, before I made judgments about you 

Yes, people can be mean, probably in college more than most because they are young people trying to work themselves out and find their way. People need to mature and learn about life sometimes before they become the people they should be

I am glad you are here and hope you stay 

[4hisglory]

Amelia,
I think when you find the Answer, all other questions will fade away.. you will simply
want to soak up His love.  The Answer stands beside you, in front of you, inside of you,
and yet you and HE need to pierce the veil that separates Him from your view.  I pray that
happens, in His perfect timing.

That said, He, and I, love you in the middle of your mess.  He, not I, can help you walk through
whatever challenges you face.  His love is immutable, unchangeable.  And yet, in wonderful
exasperating gentleman's manner, He will never push you to accept His love or guidance. 

He will always invite, never push.  The facts of His love are undeniable, unarguable.  He will
neither argue, cajole, deride.  His truth already resides within you.

I love you, sweetie, but more importantly, dear dear one, the Creator of the universe does,
and He will pursue the relationship as long and as far as you allow.. and you will reap the wonderful
reward of that in your life and see ii blossom in the lives of others you are able to share it with.

Yes, the world is often ugly and mean.. but.. as John 16:33 "In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”  I know dear one that this is hard, but there is a reality that awaits your choosing.... and HE awaits....

Love you dearest Amelia,
Mike

[arus]

Hi Amelia, nice to meet you, lol!

I personally think that you have many people here that care about you so I'm glad you stayed!!

[connor]

hello
 
last night it was kinda hard to sleep, the i googled how to get your mind to shut up. but then when i woke up in the morning i forgot id posted that for a few minutes and also accidentally at tea told my parents somthing. because they asked what my life hair plan was.
i dont think people should really ask what your life plan is for specific things because if i tell you plan H, you dont know a b c d f g for example. i dont like telling people life plans, plus life plans never work out to my knowledge, i cant think of anyone who has started with a whole life plan and it worked.
why am i typing about life plans when i am suposed to be typing a response. this listening to music thing is clearly distracting. *turns off music*
anyway, what i was going to say before i opened the post box, was that i appreichate the responses and they are good responses and i like them, and yes love you, and oh dear. *screws up this response and throws it into the small writing box* ill try writing this again
it all links up doesnt it, things you shouldnt say, dont tell the forummers things, dont tell people your plan, dont say your questions, dont dont dont dont dointntntntt
but then i typed the word love. which was
which was
love
whihc is
whihc is
 love?
this response is going well again *brings the size back up*
im not sure what happens if i change the size of my writing twice, i imagine it goes back to normal and no one knows.
love.

ok, ill go with that word. yes, ok, i loved the responses mostly almost definatly, one  or all of those words.   

hello. this response is hard to write, it makes me think of when i have to make phone calls, and before hand i walk round the room saying hello hi greetings good morning hello ... hiiiii hiya.


ok. right.
ok?
gone quiet now. like crying. maybe. yes. sudden mood change. not sure why

[Tim-O-thy]

Well said Mike.

[4hisglory]

Amelia,

Thought you might like this:

Search for higher things

This world had many faces,
names,
and places,
many things to keep
one occupied,
denying oneself the
search for higher things,
lofty heights,
once scaled,
show how small but yet
not insignificant,
each life, each soul,
each heart,
a light,
a reflection of
our Maker!

(c) 2010 Mike LeBlanc

[connor]

I think the title is suposed to mean i came because i read the shack,
i think thats almost a given, i mean everyone came here after reading the shack right?
its the shack forum
i think that past amelia wrote that like as in i came because i read it, not because i had some wish to start a arguement or get banned or somthin, but the same basic start as everyone here, reading a blue book that i threw on the floor more than once but for some reason kept going with.

i also mentioned why i read it, in the start post, i could translate my own writing there too. i read it after being hit by a car, but not exactly straight after, a couple of months after or somthing. for a month i couldnt walk, so in that month i watched medical tv shows. then after that i think i read a medical book. then after that i decided to read the shack.
i havent told anyone about my crash i dont think. umm. i mean i told one person on the internet the afterwards parts. but i didnt tell anyone about the crash or the such. which umm, i guess is a trust thing. some people i meet i say i was in a crash too, and before i say any more words even they say was it my fault. or was i being stupid, possibly listening to music? i wasnt doing any of the things they suggest.
i dotn think if people think things are me before i speak that they would understand the things beyond whos fault is it (no ones), like what happened and the god aspect.

i loosly think that if anyone would understand the god aspect, it would be believers anyhow, whihc is what i think i edged at when i said steriotypes. you wouldnt tell richard dawkins your experience fast. huh?

so i do have i dunno, i did , i did look at medical stuff, and ''god stuff'' and the such, but its not umm,

[4hisglory]

And this one:

Healing

Crying,
hurting,
healing,
churning,
raw emotion,

LOVE,
the salve,
the lotion,
the ultimate
solution.

(c) 2010 Mike LeBlanc

[4hisglory]

you wouldnt tell richard dawkins your experience fast. huh?

Richard is in a prison of his mind...

and I would share with him my own prison of the mind....  if Papa arranges it...
I don't go out of my way anymore to try to convince anyone of much of anything
(at least spiritually related)

Love,
Mike

[4hisglory]

And if you need a smile.. I know I DO!!!!

A smile

 A smile,
 freely given,
 shared,
 lightens loads,
 heals wounds,
 bringing joy,
 a ray of hope,
 touching a heart,
 reaching out,
 showing love,
 itself reflected to the giver,
 reflected, reflection,
 a benediction,
 a moment,
 frozen in time,
 treasured forever.

(c) 2010 Mike LeBlanc