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« on: November 03, 2009, 10:58:04 AM » |
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For seven years I held the death of my son inside and have been angry with God about the same amount of time. I admit that while I was reading "the Shack", there were times that I would throw the book because it would strike a nerve in my heart. I can't tell you how many times I cried, too! I had seven years of hurt built up inside and I surely did not intend to let it go. However, as my sister lovingly forced me to continue the book, the walls started to come down. My heart had been so damaged that I thought God could never heal it. Not to mention I lived for seven years thinking that God hated me! I stopped letting Him in my life. I just didn't know why he would take my Joshua. I had also thought it was my fault, that I did something to deserve this horrid nightmare to happen. BUT, "the Shack" took me through something I didn't think was possible....A renewed relationship with "Papa". I am more in love with Him now than ever before. This truly wasn't easy for me, but now, when I speak to Him or think of Him, such love fills me deeply.
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irishgeorgie
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« Reply #1 on: November 03, 2009, 11:42:30 AM » |
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Hi rpickup,
Glad to see you here.
Spoke yesterday and as I said most of us her are reeling from some hurt, or where led to read the shack after some hurt, i should say.
it is a remarkable book, Glad it has helped you and that you are starting to feel the healing. Life is never plan sailing as even Jesus found out.
I'm so sorry for your loss we lost a baby 12 years ago (he was only 3 hrs old) My husband died in May, so like I say we're on a long process of healing, and unfortunatly we can't time travel past this, I was reading another book called God on Mute, and in it the author says that teaching your son to ride a bike he won't learn while you hold onto him he will lean on you you have to give him that bit of space and hold the back of the saddle I feel that that is what has been happening to me. I thought that I was alone that I couldn't feel God's presence but I am now happy to realise that God is guiding my bike and we will end up once again having grown with the experience and ready to be used by God for what ever he has planed for us
Love and Prayers
Georgina
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rainbojo
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« Reply #2 on: November 03, 2009, 12:42:09 PM » |
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That was beautiful Georgina. Did not know that you lost a child also. ***tears***
Rpickup, I am glad you posted here and glad that you are sharing. There are wonderful people here who will embrace you and listen and love. I pray you feel the support that so many have extended to me. May you feel God's loving arms embracing you and keeping you close. Love, Mary Jo
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Son of Adam
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« Reply #3 on: November 03, 2009, 05:34:33 PM » |
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Greetings rpickup, and welcome to the Shack forum and the incredible family here. I am so sorry for the loss of your son, Joshua, but I do rejoice that Papa, through "The Shack", has started you on the road to healing and that blessed relationship He desires to have with us. No, you won't ever forget or miss Joshua, but you can walk with a renewed hope in the knowledge that your precious child is more alive than any of us and is with Jesus right now. One day you will be reunited with that precious child and what a moment that will be, and we will be there to rejoice with you. Again, welcome to the family and I hope and pray you will stay around here with us.
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Psa 139:15-16 "Nothing about me is hidden from you! I was secretly woven together deep in the earth below, but with your own eyes you saw my body being formed. Even before I was born, you had written in your book everything I would do."
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rainbojo
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« Reply #4 on: November 04, 2009, 10:09:04 AM » |
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Just stopping by today to say hello and hope you are doing well. I pray God keeps you close in His almighty arms and loves you through the storms of this life.
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rpickup
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« Reply #5 on: November 04, 2009, 10:31:46 AM » |
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Thank you to all who are praying!
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irishgeorgie
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« Reply #6 on: November 04, 2009, 02:43:13 PM » |
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rpickup,
Glad you looked in again,
Thinking about you,
Take care
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workofgrace
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« Reply #7 on: November 05, 2009, 05:17:56 AM » |
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Hi rpickup and welcome. This forum is so amazing, full of loving people from all over the world. I hope you make yourself at home and get to know us. I'm from Australia.  I'm so sorry for the loss of your son, but I'm so glad Papa is renewing your relationship with Him, and filling you with His love. I pray He comforts you and helps you to keep growing in your relationship with Him. Our Papa is an awesome God! irishgeorgie, I'm sorry for the loss of your baby and your husband. Praying Papa comforts you and fills you with His love also. Love and blessings, Sally |
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John 13:34-35 "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another."
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rainbojo
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« Reply #8 on: November 05, 2009, 05:04:27 PM » |
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That was wonderful chatting with you today... I enjoyed it immensely as you brightened my day... Blessings to you rpickup....
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irishgeorgie
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« Reply #9 on: November 06, 2009, 11:07:41 AM » |
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Hi Rpickup,
Thinking about you
Take care
Georgina
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rainbojo
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« Reply #10 on: November 06, 2009, 01:04:17 PM » |
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Bummer. Something going on with chat room, cannot enter it. Would love to 'chat' again. We'll pray that the powers that be, fix it. Hope you are feeling better regarding what we chatted about. If not, we will chat some more, okay??? It is so healthy to share our hurts, it heals us, one baby step at atime. Have a wonderful spirit-filled day... Your friend, Mary Jo
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boobear
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« Reply #11 on: November 07, 2009, 10:33:30 AM » |
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rpickup......my heart feels your pain, as I too have lost a son......this is a very loving, supporting family & I hope you continue to join us & I prya for your heart to heal...Blessings.....  |
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irishgeorgie
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« Reply #12 on: November 09, 2009, 04:19:11 AM » |
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Hi Rpickup,
Just thought I'd drop by and say Hello,
hope the feeling is continuing and growing.
I had a slight hiccup on Friday but was glad to see that even thought I felt upset that inner feeling of warmth and peace was still there
thinking of you
Georgina
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rainbojo
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« Reply #13 on: November 10, 2009, 05:12:23 AM » |
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Good morning, hope you are doing well. Keep in touch, okay. Chat room still down  |
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workofgrace
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« Reply #14 on: November 10, 2009, 06:07:28 AM » |
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Hi rpickup,
I hope you're okay.
Hi irishgeorgie, I don't think we've met. I'm Australian.
Love and blessings to you both,
Sally
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John 13:34-35 "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another."
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