Ok my lovely, lets have a look at this...I'm afraid the girls in your age group around you at the moment, aren't gonna change. Yes they are bitchy, but it passes with age as they mature, still hard to deal with when your in the middle of it, day in day out. This girl that has seizures, is there a teacher or school nurse or school councellor you could talk too about this? About how this situation makes you feel? It's really bringing you down babycakes, it doesn't have to remain this way. I know you are under a heap of pressure right now. So you need to (when you are not upset) have a good look at all the sources of this pressure, and see what you can deal too and ease, or better still, eliminate. Maybe even write some stuff down, brain storm over how you can alleviate the pressure that is bearing down on you.
Shelly I really feel for you not being able to talk with your parents. That is so hard. Do you think they might project some fears onto you, because of your siblings depression? Have you tried talking to your family doctor? I know thats difficult, cos you have to pay, and it's expensive. If you felt comfortable, you could try calling, and seeing if you can have a chat over the phone. Do your parents have friends that you get on with that you could talk to? What about grandparents? What about parents of your friends? Is there anyone in your life and circle of friends that is accessable to you and you feel you could open up too and have a wee chat about things?
I agree, it's so much easier talking to strangers online, being behind a screen makes you feel alot more courageous, than you would probably otherwise feel, talking face to face with someone. Just be careful, cos in your pain you are vulnerable. Just be safe online ok? Don't give out any contact or personal information. But you already know that!
Hey if it's any consolation, I can't talk with my mum either! And I'm cough 38 cough....
In a nutshell my lovely.... you need to find someone you can talk with. If after having a think and you aren't able to come up with anyone, how about youth helplines. They are normally always free and have trained councellors to take your calls. They don't pressure you or anything, they are professionals, who will be able to listen to you and maybe point you in the right direction.
Hey I see that we are fellow Australasians! WOOHOO!
I gotta hit the sack now my lovely... SOOOOO tired, REALLY need some beauty sleep!
Looking forward to hearing from you again. You know just quickly. I was talking with a friend tonight and I said to him, 'all you need to do is just put one foot infront of the other, you don't need to run just yet.' It's the same for you Shelly, don't try and get every little thing figured out at once, it's ok for it to evolve over time, sometimes its the natural law of things.
I'll be praying for you tonight.
Big kiss
jen x
